There comes a time in everybody's life where you learn where people stand in regards to you. There is that time where people will leave or abandon you. Maybe its because of some false idea or because of something you did or because they just couldn't hack it. Whatever the reason is, that is the time you have to stay strong and say "SCREW IT!" I'm going through that right now. My heart is completely broken. I'm second guessing everything and like always a part of me is gone. Sadly its the last part of me. I think this kitty's time in the wild is over. I don't have anything left so where do I go from here? A lot of people say that when you're at your lowest of lows, there's nowhere to go but up.
Today I make a new decree. I'm ending friendships that should have been ended. I'm done with my needs never being met. If you are too afraid to be around me because I'm so different then don't come near. If you cant respect me for my thoughts and my feelings then stay away. Most of all if I have to put more time into contacting you then you do in contacting me, forget it! I'm done. If I'm going to move on then some sort of barrier needs to be made. I'm going up the mountain to talk to my conscious and when I come back down I'm bringing back "The Lighty Commandments". I'm going on a "mutha-fracking" crusade and, WATCH OUT, because if you get in my way, there will be fire and brimstone!
In conclusion, My heart just got colder. My shell just got harder and if you dare try to break through, you better be worth it because, it's going to be a long while before I ever trust anyone again! That's right I said it... this goes for everybody! I... DO... NOT... TRUST... YOU! Frankly as far as I'm concerned, nobody on this planet is deserving of my trust.
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