My Android "Sans Touch" Adventure...

Last Sunday I received my little sister's broken Samsung Moment phone. It's a cute little phone but her touch panel was pretty shattered, It (the panel) worked but like an idiot I decided to try to peel the "shards" away from the touch panel. Lets just say, that did not work. In the end I decided to cut off the touch panel completely and learn how to navigate Android OS strictly with the keyboard.

This is the Samsung Moment WITH touch panel...


This is my Samsung Moment...

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For starters, IF you EVER decide to navigate an android device with a physical keyboard, make sure that device has PHYSICAL, "Home", "Menu" and "Back" buttons. I can not stress enough how important the "Back" option is in Android. Most phones tend to have a "menu" modifier button on the QWERTY keyboard. Luckily my phone was one of them. As for application navigation, The Home menu is just a glorified way to do said task. You can simply press the "Search" button on your keyboard and type in the name of the application you want and open it that way.

Another way to quickly get to your most used applications is to use keyboard shortcuts. Below is a video showing you how to set up your shortcuts.



How are things so far, you wonder? I'll tell you this. I'm having a OK time navigating between Twitter, Youtube, Facebook and Nimbuzz (my multi-messaging app). I was pretty disappointed to see that the OKCupid app did not include keyboard navigation for "in app" options. Of course, the work around for that is to just simply pull up the browser and use the OKCupid mobile site. I have yet to try my emulators but I'm not sure I want to, considering the arrow buttons on this keyboard are pretty tiny and would making gaming a pain in the hiney. I could just easy connect my Wii Remote to this phone using Bluetooth.

Before I go, I mentioned my workarounds for the "Menu" and "Home" commands but Not "Back". Look at picture 3. Do you see that lighted area in the corner? When the full screen cover is on, just placing my finger over that light would execute the "Back" command. In my case I need to place my finger not over that light but in the corner where the touch cable was cut to attempt the "Back" command. it works 75 percent of the time.

For now I'll continue to use Android the way I am but as soon as I can get the money, I will be getting the following items...


- a cover for this phone


- a new touch panel

- of course, if there are any willing people out here who would like to donate these items, I wouldn't mind creating a new post, documenting my experience repairing the touch panel. :) *wink wink*

My Gaming Life...

Hey peeps,

Its been a long while since I have been updating the blog on a regular basis. Last night I got a few rounds in with "SmackDown vs. RAW 2009" (Wii version obviously). I'm excited about the 2010 game but at the same tine I'm disappointed. sure, we get all of the story creation option (although a bit skimpy in some areas) but with no online mode in this game, I cant help but to feel shafted. Even worse, I have a feeling that the Wii team at THQ based our game off of the PlayStation 2 version. Last year's game gave off so much promise and only lacked a few small things and now its like THQ is starting all over again. Why must they reinvent the wheel EVERY year? What's so hard about continuing where you left off?

Another annoyance I have, and it's not just with THQ, is developers lack of using DVD-9 disc. "Smackdown vs. RAW 2010" would have benefited from the extra space of a DVD-9 disc instead of trying the cram the Wii version on a DVD-5. Its like, after the whole "lens cleaning" issue of Smash Bros Brawl, devs are afraid to actually put their games on the bigger disc. I don't see what the big issue is. Heck, even the price of these DVD-9 disc are coming down. Last year I got a 3 pack for 11.99 and this year I got a 25 pack for 24.99. see the major change? Anywho, I'm still looking forward to getting my hands on the new SmackDown game. Aside from that, I have been playing "Spyborgs" (Wii) lately. it's a very fun game and very underrated. If you have the chance, and enough controllers, grab a friend and play the game together. Well, that's all for now. I have to get back to posting "real gaming news". Laterz!

Long Blogging Vacation

Its been a long week since I have created any blog post. Honestly, most of the gaming news of last week was pretty unappealing. On the personal side of things, I'm living a real life soap opera and I really needed the time to try to figure things out. Did I? No. Things are clearer in some areas but even more confusing in others. Everyone tells me I just need to write a book about my life. I guess with all of the drama, it would make for an interesting read. I wouldn't make it so blatant but maybe a slightly altered version of my life for a fictional character would be nice. As for other thing that I was doing last week, lets just say Ive been working hard on a laptop. Its mostly perfect but still has battery and WiFi issues.

Right now, my head hurts like crazy. I'm still stressin'. some people know why, others just wont. Have to make a quick run to the bank today to drop this money off for my
electric bill. "Yay, something else to worry about. On a bright side, I get to go see WWE Friday Night Smackdown, this Tuesday. You're probably thinking;"how exactly do you see a Friday show on Tuesday?" SmackDown is pre-recorded as well as WWE Superstars and ECW is displayed live. My guess is that at 6:30 they will record the 2 hours of SmackDown, then change the rope color (from SD blue to ECW silver) and ring drape to record the SmackDown and ECW contributions to this Thursday's episode of Superstars and then when 10:00pm hits, they will change the drapes once more to to the live showing of ECW. That's right! THREE shows for the price of one! Almost five hours (give or take dark matches) of wrestling! I cant wait. Anywho, I'm outie. I need to find this disc that has a backup of all my work and music.

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Here's my horoscope for today...

- Cancer -

"The spotlight looks absolutely lovely on you. So enjoy the warmth. Go on and shine."

Today: Jul 19, 2009

After a busy spell and lots of new beginnings, your life is entering a period of many terminations. The good news is that nothing is going to be over that doesn't need to be over. The people who are good for you and represent a positive force in your life aren't going anywhere! Transitional periods like this can be difficult, but you are blessed with an emotional intelligence that helps you see that things happen for a reason in life. This will make you stronger -- for sure.

Goin' Personal

It has been a while since I have done a blog post about the goings of my life. Recently Things have been on a roller coaster. I keep saying the words "I'm alive" but in some ways I don't feel that way. Today, the day outside was fairly beautiful yet, while walking around, I could not help but to hang my head. I'm still struggling with a damaged heart, the shame of where some elements of my life are and the feelings of being used and not cared about. There is hope but sometimes even the hope can render itself, annoying. Lately, I have been doing things to keep myself "feeling useful" and things that will hopefully pay off in the end.

I'm still big in the Wii modding scene. I frequent GBATemp daily, hoping to spot some new homebrew application to use. As always I skim the net trying to find as much news as I possibly can ti bring back here. Next week is where things will be very busy. On Monday I will be heading out to take a "placement test" for the school I'm trying to enter. While there I will also handle any "financial aid" related issues. Wednesday, I'm going to a job fair. Who knows, maybe I can land something good. I will stay optimistic. Friday is the orientation class for said school. I will be there for a few hours to learn the ropes of the "school culture". In some ways I can't wait. It's a new adventure! Also it's the start to my path of being a more professional video game journalist.

Aside from the goings of next week, I still need to deal with the inner workings of things. Maybe, one day I will finally be able to find some peace and happiness. Maybe one day I will fine the one thing I have always looked for. Oh well...

Life is Too Short...

Farah and Michael in the same day... It's not only shocking and depressing but it makes you think about a lot. First off I owe Ten-Chan an apology. While I was acting like a spoiled brat I really wasn't thinking much about the words that were exiting my mouth. I can totally understand if you never want to hear from me again but I'm dearly sorry. To the ones who are close to me, if you never hear me say it you can read it now. You all mean so much to me. We don't always agree or get to spend time together but I love you all dearly. Yes, even when we do drive each other nuts. To my little princess. You're too young to read this but Papa loves and thinks about you every day. To your mother, we dont get along at times but I don't hate you. To everyone that has ever crossed paths with me. Please forgive the negative things I have done to you in the past and know that the positive things were always done with the best of intentions. To some of you who know me well, NO, I am not writing a will. As for how I feel right now. I can more than say that I'm confused, afraid and sad. Even with all of that I still remail hopeful. Besides, it's all I have these days. I hope for brighter days and I hope that one of these days I can better show my care for others. I hope that someone special knows how much my heart belongs to her, even when I act like a giant spoiled baby. To my friends, may our friendships last longer. To my little one, daddy will always be there for you. I think I finished saying whats I can say from my heart. Its a bit numb and hurting and I know that I lashed out on a few people but I'm truly sorry. Life is too short. If something happens to any of us (Friends, Family, Special Someone) I want you to know that I love you all with all of my heart.

Still Up...

I don't know why. It's 12:05 am and I'm still up watching "Wrestlemania 24". There's this guy who is hosting every SmackDown brand WWE episode from 2002 to 2007 on his Justin.tv channel. That also includes pay per views related to the SmackDown brand. Anywho. I can't sleep. I'm so frustrated. She actually had the nerve to message me. For what? To "see how I'm doing?" I call total bull on that but I have stronger words that I just wont say. Shoot I consider my use of the word "frack" is a bit harsh for a somewhat "family friendly" blog. Speaking of family friendly I'm thinking about rating my blog post. I think doing so might be interesting. maybe I'll use the ESRB system, especially since this is partially a Nintendo blog. Oh well, I'll be around...

Peaches, Peaches and More Peaches. Just Peachy!

Frankly I have had one to many peaches in one week. I'm tired of peaches. I could be mean and start throwing peaches at other people but why lower myself to that level? Its funny how some people after giving you a peach come back to you to see if you're liking your peach. In response, "I hate peaches, especially yours." More often than not, nobody gets how I feel. Its sickening how people think they can do something to you, expect for you to act a certain way because they think it's "mature" and then look at you weird because you react the way you do. Honestly I really don't care. My level of care is at "zero level". There are no magical potions or extra "Hit Points" or magical boxes that spew out mushrooms. Right now nothing is going to rise my "care level". I'm not going to play "friendship" I wouldn't dare think of putting someone through what I been through for the past months. Well, with all of that said, hopefully next week will be better. At least I have things to look forward to...

Tomorrow (I know it's technically not next week) All NEW episode of "Power Rangers RPM"

Sunday - Fathers Day! I want to see my little one soo badly!

Monday - 2 hours of commercial free "WWE: Monday Night RAW"

Tuesday - "The Conduit" (Wii). After two LONG years of waiting, FINALLY this game gets released! ...oh, and lets not forget a new episode of ECW

Wednesday - I dunno... I'll figure out something

Thursday - "WWE: Superstars"

Friday - "WWE: Friday Night SmackDown"

Saturday - My Birthday!!!

Some Things Shall Pass Away...

There comes a time in everybody's life where you learn where people stand in regards to you. There is that time where people will leave or abandon you. Maybe its because of some false idea or because of something you did or because they just couldn't hack it. Whatever the reason is, that is the time you have to stay strong and say "SCREW IT!" I'm going through that right now. My heart is completely broken. I'm second guessing everything and like always a part of me is gone. Sadly its the last part of me. I think this kitty's time in the wild is over. I don't have anything left so where do I go from here? A lot of people say that when you're at your lowest of lows, there's nowhere to go but up.

Today I make a new decree. I'm ending friendships that should have been ended. I'm done with my needs never being met. If you are too afraid to be around me because I'm so different then don't come near. If you cant respect me for my thoughts and my feelings then stay away. Most of all if I have to put more time into contacting you then you do in contacting me, forget it! I'm done. If I'm going to move on then some sort of barrier needs to be made. I'm going up the mountain to talk to my conscious and when I come back down I'm bringing back "The Lighty Commandments". I'm going on a "mutha-fracking" crusade and, WATCH OUT, because if you get in my way, there will be fire and brimstone!

In conclusion, My heart just got colder. My shell just got harder and if you dare try to break through, you better be worth it because, it's going to be a long while before I ever trust anyone again! That's right I said it... this goes for everybody! I... DO... NOT... TRUST... YOU! Frankly as far as I'm concerned, nobody on this planet is deserving of my trust.

NOBODY Gets It!!!!

-- Some people NEED to read this to understand why I am so mad today!!! --

I just wasted three DVD-R disc back to back because of a failed burn or bad information. I JUST got "Tiger Woods 10" to finish its download after waiting ONE WHOLE WEEK. The first disc becomes a bad burn because I was trying to close two apps and was being bombarded with IMs at the same time. The second disc burns correctly but wont load on my Wii either through the "Disc Channel" or through the "Backup Loader" channel. The third disc, I was going to place the game image on there as a data disc, take it over to windows and burn a fourth disc (that I would grab from Auntie) as a game disc.

Well, whoop de fracking do, the third disc goes all coaster on me and that burn gets botched up. ALL THREE disc that I purchased this week are all wasted. How would you feel if you were downloading a movie, or a music cd or some work, only had THREE disc to use and did NOT have any extra money to buy more then, all of your THREE disc frack up on you?!?! You wouldn't feel so good now would you? Maybe I should just chill like most people are saying but that doesn't mean I have to be happy about the situation. Everybody wants me to have sympathy for them when bad things happen well, I would expect the same from everybody else. They were not "just disc" They were going to be my copies of "Tiger Woods 10", "Grand Slam Tennis" and "Virtua Tennis 2009" and now I'm empty handed. Its not the fact that they were just simple disc that mattered but the intention and the data they were to be used for. next time one of your DVD movies or a CD breaks and someone tells you that they were "just disc", remember this post...

The Lamest Sunday EVER!

-- Going Crazy --

My thoughts are all over the place! Well, not all over the place but on one subject and all over the place, within that subject. My body is shaking. I can hardly sleep and I can hardly breathe. I've been at it for two weeks. Put my thoughts to rest! I love them but now they make my body go haywire. I don't know how to express this so I'm trying this route. I don't know how to further approach this so I'm telling you now. I need my thoughts put to rest.



-- Tiger Woods 10 --

(12:50 pm) ...I swear if the time on this download gets any higher I'm going to bust. I mean bust in that mad. angry, annoyed way. I haven't waited this long on a 4Gb download since the days where I used to use a generator to power up my old apartment. Back in those days, I used to have to ration computer time so that all the gas in the tank wouldn't be sucked up. This damn thing was, supposed to have been done by now. Now it fluctuates between a ETA of 2 and 3 hours. Talk about annoying.

-- Company --

(1:00 pm) ...It would be so nice to have some company today but I guess the chances of that are slim. Its lonely here at times. I don't always want to play with my Wii games by myself...

-- Pizza --

(1:55 pm) ...I don't know why but for some reason I'm craving for pizza. a quick $5.00 pizza from Little Caesars would hit the spot. It weird how things just suddenly hit you. BTW This has to be the most boring Sunday I have ever had.

-- Making Tea --

(3:03 pm) ...Just finished making a batch of tea. I didn't want to waste the excess from the first bottle so I decided to make another batch and leave that in my blue pitcher. I ran out of sugar to complete the second batch so its staying in the pitcher as a W.I.P. Hopefully nobody decides to raid my fridge and decides to drink my unfinished tea.

-- 99 Percent --

Why is it that torrent downloads almost ALWAYS hang at 99% ?! I swear, I just don't get it. A second ago I only had 29 minutes on this download and now it's up to 52 minutes. Talk about wanting to pull my hair out. BTW I'm still craving for pizza!

Live and Love, it's All I Can Do.

-- Little Princess--

Went to see my little princess (daughter) today. Looks like she's doing fine. As usual, just being cheerful, and exploring everything that's in her sight. We spent most of the time playing "peek-a-boo". She has this thing where she loves to grab my hands and make me cover my face so I can open my hands and give her a silly look. Its sweet watching her giggle. She's my world. Things haven't been easy this year but nobody should ever doubt how much I love her. There are days where I beat myself up because I can't do everything I wish I could do. I still love her...

-- Some Dreams are not Real --

Speaking of love, I think that a very important someone thinks that I'm all talk and no action. The thing is I will admit that I have done something I should never have done but, it doesn't change the fact that she's important to me. "You ask me to trust you then, TRUST ME". I have never lied to you and don't plan on making it a habit. I have been the most open to you than any other person I have ever met in life. I care about you and you mean a great deal. Lemon-Chan and I were talking today. I was telling him about how I was worried that you don't believe my feelings and then we were reminded of how often I talk about you. Lemon even made a mention of how, we would have a wrestling conversation and I would always find some way to bring the convo back to you. Don't believe that? Ask my aunt about how often I talk about you. Sure, its not a matter of just talking but for me its my way of expressing my feelings. To me its like having a neon red light over my head and walking in a dark alley while the words "I love her" are flashing. You can't miss it! Thing is, what I feel is true. Believe what you want. I will say this, I'm hurt that you don't understand...

-- Someone or Something is Watching Over Me --

Lately, I can't help but to have this feeling that something is watching over me. Just when I think everything is going to go haywire something or someone pops out of nowhere and the situation gets a bit better. My life is far from easy. There are days where I don't even know where my next meal will come from but it does. I don't know how exactly to explain it. Things are in the traditional sense bad yet I have this feeling that I will be all right. Maybe its because I have gone through worse situations. Or the fact that I face death every time I'm riding my bike. Maybe I'm finally learning to stop worrying so much and to let things be. Whatever it is, its there. I'll accept this feeling and keep living. Besides, its all I can do. Lemon-Chan, thank you for your help today and, tell your family I said "thank you" also. I don't have enough digits to count the number of times that your family has helped me. Most of you know, I don't have a"religious affiliation" but, there was this one bible verse that came into mind while I was thinking about all of this. Its funny how some things from your childhood stay with you...



- Matthew 6:25-27 -

25“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

Just Being Me...FINALLY!

Before I start I know full well that what I'm about to say may make some people happy for me and others disappointed in me but in the end, these words need to be said. Rekcah-Chan and JerZ-Chan I want to say thank you. Rekcah, you have been saying it for years and JerZ you bashed it into my head this morning. This time, I need to take that advice. I need to just be myself. The problem with a majority of my life is that I spent too much of it trying to make other people happy. Sure, I tend to be happy when people I care about are happy but until today Ive always did that to an extreme where my own happiness didn't matter. Those days are over. I'm tired of not being the real me! everyone thinks I'm a negative person and I might just seem like it. I'm only that way because I was so worried about play a facade for others. Ive spent so many years setting aside my beliefs and values for others, to accommodate to make them not disappointed at me. Frankly, like John Cena says, "I DON'T CARE!"

Friendships and every other type of relationship MUST include mutual respect or they will never work. That is, respect for feelings, thoughts, beliefs and values. I'm different and I think the way I do because I am me. It never means that I will trample upon your value system, and it doesn't make me any less worthy to be looked at, cared about and even loved by the masses around me. To many people spend time hating on each other and their selves because they're so damn worried with trying to fit a image. There have been to many wars fought because someone wants to push their ideas on someone else. What people NEED to learn is to just love themselves and each their of who they are. Everything else is irrelevant. There is a reason we all think differently and its evident every day that no one answer is the final answer. I believe that the truth is a culmination of everything we know.

Back to me for a moment. With all of that said, I am also learning more about myself. I think I'm starting to gain a spiritual side but not in the way that some will hope. I went to church this past Sunday for the first time in four years. I just wanted to check a few things out. I even found it to be uplifting. I was thinking to myself how fun it would be to spend this month checking out all the religions. Something to do for exploratory purposes. I had a dosage of Christianity this past Sunday but I'm hoping to check out Islam and Judaism next week. Of course I would check them out if I can find worship places within my traveling means. I just want to observe. I think after I knock those two out I'll check out Buddhism and Hinduism. I don't want to be tied to one idea or answer, even if its one that I have thought was right for so many years.

As for the Church I went to, this past Sunday, I would very much like to go back. It was comforting. Compared to my last experience with a church, I like the "big" setting better. I find that smaller churches where everybody knows each other, tends to bring about a lot of personal issues. Spiritualism should be about your own personal connection to whatever it is you believe in. A person shouldn't have to worry about impressing others in a place of worship. Well with all of that said, I'm feeling mixed. Mostly positive but a few negative bytes linger. The only real negative is the fact that I would love to feel wanted today. It would be nice to have someone bug me and constantly pop in on me and ask me a bunch or random, nearly nagging questions about my day. Just once. I just want to be adored. Sure I can be pretty damn vain when it comes to beauty and attention. Lemon-Chan once called me a "camera wh*re". Appropriately said during a time when I was snapping loads of pictures of myself with a newly purchased Nintendo DSi. Aside from that, I love myself!

I'm sweet, caring, goody and even "dainty". I collect plushies, play and love Nintendo, watch anime (especially the ones of the chick flick, super hero variety), can perform every Power Rangers morph call and a good day of watching TV includes CNN. I love chocolate, drink "choco" cyrup mixed in strawberry soda, sometimes, I pick off my pizza toppings to eat them first before chowing on the sauce, cheese and dough. I AM ME! I can not be anything else. I LOVE ME! That's right, I said it! I LOVE ME!

Holding Onto "Swagger"

-- Another Monday Begins --

(10:45am) -got up this morning and made it here. I hate this place but I'm here. I probably wouldn't have so much contempt had it not been for the fact that Ive been here to many times. It's bad enough that I'm waiting but now, because of a fire alarm I'm back outside.

I'm trying my best to stay bright, to hold onto something someone called "swagger". I wont lie, its hard. Just too many bad memories are associated with this place. Even more sad is that, when I look around, I see the sad memories on the people here. A social, economical and legal system that is, what internet geeks like me would call, "Epic Fail".

On a slightly bright side, its kinda nice to be out in the sun again. It was freezing inside. The cold makes me, well, never mind. I just don't like cold environments. Another side note; if I ever get a hold of a camera and some costumes, I have to film a fight scene in front of this building. The setting is perfect!


-- Back to school --

(12:00pm) Stopped by Reynolds to get some enrolling information. Looks like tomorrow I'm going to have to get in contact with my old high school and college and get my transcripts. That shouldn't be much of a problem, I guess. The good thing is, it will be one step closer to a better future. The only other early problem I'm seeing is the placement test that all students must take. I'm wondering what subjects the test will cover. It's been a while since Ive been in a school environment, let alone one that's not a lax as ITT. Looks like I'll be doing some studying soon.

-- Right Now --

I'm still working on the Nintendo Conference article. Outside the blog I'm debating on what to make for dinner. From looking at my gas and electric bills I cant help but to be proud of myself. I'm damn good at energy conservation ! Well, that aside, I feel lovely, maybe slightly confused, maybe a bit worried but overall, lovely just lovely. I have a lot to be happy about. I'm here and for now, maybe I should just be glad I am. Who knows whats coming my way. Whatever it is, I've already been down, there's nowhere to go but up...

Stuff

-- Postponement --

..E3 coverage will be postponed until tomorrow, depending on multiple factors.

-- Just Want to Be --

Its yet another moonlit night. The moon is a lot fuller than it was yesterday, shining just as bright. I don't know. I see it but I don't feel it. The moon isn't shining bright enough for me. I just wish that something was beaming on me, something warm, something loving, something that makes me feel beautiful. I'm starting to feel like I'm far from it. I just don't know how it feels anymore. To be beautiful to someone. Maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm such a wreck that I will never be that again. I was told that I was but, that was some time ago. I miss it so much. They were the sweetest words ever said to me. Its kinda hard to hate someone who has ever told you that. That person is long gone now.

I think Ive found hope. Someone new but I'm not sure. Everything tells me to run yet everything tells me to stay. Its so confusing and scary. Yes, I get scared. Often than not. I'm the different one, remember. The world thinks of me as an oddball. Doesn't matter as long as I'm beautiful to someone. Living would be so much worth it if I can wake up every day and know I'm "just fine" by that special someone. Living, knowing that no matter how "different" or how much of a oddball I can be, I will still be beautiful. I don't care about my looks. I want my heart to be beautiful to someone. If I could have one wish it would be for one thing. I would give up every idea of a "good wish" for that one. If I ad a genie I would use one wish and give away the other two. That's how dear it is to me. I just want to be beautiful to someone.

-- Today's Horoscope --

My Yahoo horoscope for today looks promising... Who knows?

Life

-- E3 Coverage --

A lot of stuff has happened today in regards to E3. I'm sure many of you have been reading the blogs so my blog post, tomorrow might be old news but, its from my perspective and I never stop giving my two cents. Tomorrow I will have my recaps of the Nintendo and Sony conferences as well as any other news I may run into. I hope you will be checking the blog tomorrow. I will try to keep things exciting!

-- The Day Tomorrow --

I plan to head out to visit my daughter. For those of you who are used to messaging me through out the day, I will be pretty much unavailable for a good chunk. Rest assured I will answer your messages as promptly as possible.

-- Animal Crossing --

I'm trying to get back into actually gaming and not just talking about it. Last Saturday I about an hour and a half (maybe two) playing "Animal Crossing City Folk". I had another session tonight at nine for another hour while waiting to watch E.C.W. There are a few things I want to do over the next few days. I want to pay off the house mortgage so I can upgrade to something bigger. I have 15,000 bells but the mortgage is about 18.000. Of course I will probably perform a few "jobs" to make the last 3,000 bells and some more. The next thing on my list is to go shopping in the big city. I hope the clothes shop still has the tuxedo on display. While I'm thinking about it I would love to introduce Ten-Chan to Animal Crossing. I really think she would enjoy it.

-- Justin.tv + Mac OSX --

I'm trying to start a Power Rangers channel on Justin.tv but I'm having a bit of trouble. I need to fake a web cam signal so that instead of showing my camera it will re-route to my episodes. I know that programs like that are abundant on the Windows platform but I was wondering if anyone know of a similar program for Mac OS.

Well that's all, I'm off to bed...

Milk & Cookies
Lightning Kid =^_^=

Before I go to Bed...

--Awesome News, New Dilemma--

Tickets go on sale for "WWE Friday Night SmackDown" at the Richmond Coliseum this Saturday. The event date is Tuesday July 21st which obviously means that "Friday Night SmackDown" will be taped from 8:00pm to 10:00pm with ECW being broadcast (after) live from 10:00pm to 11:00pm and either one of two things can happen. If they use the ECW setup for that Thursday's episode of "WWE Superstars" then we might get a Superstars recorded match between the SmackDown recording and ECW showing or after ECW as a extra matche or two for coming to the show. I really want to go this time. I have NEVER been to a WWE event. Funny thing is Ive met two wrestlers in person (complete with autograph signing) and was the first person in life for one of those meets (walked close to seven miles that day, no joke). I really want a certain someone to come along with me but I'm not quite sure...

--A Certain Someone--

I'm sleeping too much, its not a good thing. I'm not sleeping because I'm tired but to pass the day along. I haven't done this since I was a teenager, living with my sister during the weekends and my adopted mother during my school days. I'm worried about the future yet saddened and hurt by today and deeply scarred by yesterday. I'm scared, frustrated and lonely and the walls that surround me have now become a shell. I feel confined. I feel like Ive lost something very important yet at the same time wondering if it all was what it seemed. Everyday I keep losing something. Every bit of me is being chipped away. I don't want "someone" to solve my problem yet being loved makes me complete. That's what I'm lacking right now. I haven't felt it in a long time I thought I did a few months back but I had a hard lesson with that situation. I found out it was all a lie.

Now I'm in a new situation and I just don't know what to do. Do I act like my zodiac sign and shell up with my pincers out? Its hard for me to trust. I'm so used to people being flaky that I wished I had a clue what the opposite was.
I might not know what to do but I know what outcome I want. Some days it feels like I'm getting close but those days are few and far in between. Most days it feels like I'm just running in circles. I'm just so unsure about a lot and yet hopeful about a few. I hate "hope"... It gets me into trouble. Well, it has, it did. Will it again? Will my "hope" finally lead me to a tunnels end with bright daylight or into a cave where the end is a dead end, a dark, cold wall of nowhere? I just don't know and I'm scared. I'm tired of being scared.

--Rice--

I gotta do something about my food situation. If I eat rice one more day I think I will barf. Don't get me wrong, I love rice and noodles and anything in between but, I cant do it anymore. Darn it I need meat! Nice, chunky, cow! Well.... oh well.

Saturday

--Nothing Special--

Its another Saturday. A few good things happened but I still remain a bit bummed. The morning started off with me not wanting to get out of bed. I typed my usual "Good morning" message to Ten-Chan and spend a decent chunk of time trying to fix my makeshift antenna for the digital tuner on my bedroom TV. Noon came along and the first half of the 12:00 hour was a repeat of last weeks episode of "Power Rangers RPM" You can actually find that episode in this blog. It's episode 12.

Moving on, I was treated to a brand spanking new episode of RPM at 12:30 and I will not spoil the episode before posting it but I will say that it is worth the watch. The rest of the afternoon goes by and I spent that time on instant messenger talking to Rekcah-Chan and poping sporradic messages to Ten-Chan. By 6 ish Rekcah-Chan arrives here and I finish the Wii System Menu 4.0 safe (for homebrew) update on his system. We watch the first two episodes of RPM together (to introduce him to the show) and then it was off to get some dinner. We ended up getting Chinese.

Ate here at the apartment, watched a few Japanese hip-hop music videos and afterwards he went home. I can't complain. The time I spent with my friend was great. That doesnt mean I dont miss the company of certain other people. Honestly I'm kinda hurting. Person A) I invited over multiple times and everytime I offer the invitation that person never comes. Person B) ...well, this situation is way more complicated. I understand how important certain elements in person B's life are but it would be nice if P.B. would just take a break long enough to spend some time with me. Its mighty hard to try to get to know somebody if the only time you get to see them is once a month (if you're lucky). Missing person A isnt as impactful as missing person B. Sometimes it feels as if person B could care less if we ever got to see each other face to face. Sometimes it feels like I should stop talking to person B long enough to see if I would ever be missed by B. Somehow I have this sad feeling that, B might not even care. I miss person B but I dont think that person gets it.

--Tomorrow--

I dont have a clue what I'm doing tomorrow. I would really like to try to make some progress in one of my games. "The Godfather" sounds nice. Maybe I might do some weeding to my town in "Animal Crossing: City Folk". Who knows.

Milk & Cookies,
Lightning Kid =^_^=

Today, Yesterday, Whatever in between

--Getting the Lame Stuff out of the Way--

Today I lost my Nintendo DSi system due to another harsh life lesson. I really do not feel like going into details but it was one of those moments where I should really have accepted the advice of others. Note to the wise, if THREE people give you the SAME advice, take it!

--Explanation of People Places & Things--

Throughout this blog there will people that I will talk about often. For the sake of privacy I will Refer to them by partial (or full) nick and "chan" if they are a friend or by title if its a family member (i.e. Sister, Cousin, ect). For the most part, general places and items will be disclosed in full.

--Happy Gaming Moments--

Sadly, I do not have my copy of "Punch Out Wii" yet, but the download should be done in roughly 3 hours. To keep myself busy I spend time playing "Super Punch Out" (SNES). Its hard to imagine that "Super Punch Out" is fifteen years old! I feel old now. My friend Lemon-chan and I was taking turns trying to beat different boxers throughout the game. It was funny getting our hinies whipped only for one of us to figure out our opponents pattern and defeat him. Ive been a Nintendo fan since I was 6 and I have to admit that until now I have not personally stepped into the boxing ring with the "Punch out" series. I have enjoyed watching people play on numerous occasions but I guess I just wasn't sure about playing. Thanks to this new Wii version, I was motivated to go back and find out what exactly it was that I missed out on and I am happy to say I am a new "Punch Out" fan! Before I stop blabbing on and on about how great "Punch Out" is I will leave you with two awesome extended commercials for the Wii version.



Here is the "Doc Luis" commercial explaining the game controls using the "Wii Remote/Nunchuck" combination
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This Commercial is the "Little Mac" commercial that is the extended version of the one used on TV
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--RPM: Get in Gear--

As usual, here is last weeks episode of "Power Rangers: RPM". There might not be a new episode for a while. Last time I checked the release list this episode I am showing you was the last one titled before the first repeat period. It would have been better if Disney would have just aired the first 18 episodes and not just the first 12 before going into repeats. The first 18 episodes are already completed and if the show stops here for a brief repeat season that means that we will be spending the next 6 weeks in repeats On a side note I have just found my new, favorite "Ziggy Moment" at 5:45 of 1/3 of this episode.

Blitz 1/3



Blitz 2/3



Blitz 3/3



I'm starting to feel lazy now and I'm still bummed out about my lack of a DSi so I am signing off. I hope everyone has a good night :)

Milk & Cookies,
Lightning Kid =^_^=

Lessons Learned

--Where Does it End--

Where does the line between "human need and self preservation" and "human greed" begin or end. Im facing very hard lessons on the matter and honestly, they're lessons I could care to not deal with right now. My recent actions have caused me to question the integrity of my heart. Still, even with all that is going on, I know Im not "bad". I guess I struggle a lot when it comes to doing something for others and doing for myself. Im very giving and I care about the people around me alot but I also tend to get used alot. Funny thing is I just cant use people in the same fashion. When I try, I end up hurting myself and worse, hurting the ones I love.

Honestly, I cant believe how low I stooped for a small feeling of power. Not sure what exactly got in me but I know what exactly left. Another chunk of my left over innocense was chiped away. Then again, maybe not completely. Today I had a incodent where A guy was running to catch a bus and I was biking by. I could have stopped the bus for him but I didnt.

What did I do? I paused... I wanted to help but my desire to get to my destination was "nagging" at me. Still, I paused, not for a quick moment but for a few minutes. Every part of me wanted to ride back, tell the gut to hop on and go chasing after that bus he needed. Is that normal?!

Is it normal to want to be able to risk life and limb for people you don't know. Thats the real me, the one who ride a bike across town to help someone. I just have this need to know that I have a impact in someones life.

Well, enough ranting about that. If I have the mental energy tomorrow I will FINALLY do that blog on developer lazyness.

Sweet Dreams,
Lightning Kid =^_^=

...On My Mind

--Own Personal Jesus--

To whom it may concern,

My heart belongs to one person and you know who it is but I am so confused and even scared so Im telling you how Im feeling. Im going to pour my heart out and hopefully when I'm done there wont be any confusion. I also hope things wont be strained.

I can't be your own personal Jesus anymore. Its already hard enough to be in love with someone who is not in love with me. I fully understand you need for time and space to develop whatever it may be. I can respect where you are coming from on many things but you need to know something. Its not fair for me to love you when you can easily shove in my face how you dont love me or how we're not dating. Its not fair for me to love you when you set me aside and dear get dissapointed when I dont feel happy about your words.

I feel like you want me to love you in spite of all your ups and down. I just cant have a Jesus/Humanity relationship with you. You cant just ask me to accept you while you trample on my personality and expect for all to be forgiven. Its like you think that its manditory for me to forgive everything. Maybe you arent thinking that way but actions speak louder.

Nobody is perfect, I am far from it but its not fair for me to accept you for everything no matter the relationship situation, yet you only deem me dateable if I go through your series of "recommended" changes. Here's a question~or two for you. If I changed, would the Lighty after the change be the same Lighty that you have come to know? Better yet, If it is so necessicary for me to change is it safe for me to say that you truly dont like me?